To comfort myself after tummy rumbles and sleeping way too much and dreaming of my snake's cage falling apart and trying and trying to put it back together without touching her (ridiculous, I can touch her, even if she bites) and knowing exactly where the anxiety is coming from.
This is
Harem House ficverse, but it's fairly straightforward, no back-canon needed.
Hisoka na Shokkan
by Sameshima Shuzumi
The tap of the cigarette on Yohji's palm was the only thing keeping him awake. It wasn't lit, of course, and he hadn't been hung over, of course, but even then he hadn't gotten much sleep.
Blinking back fatigue, he left a fat tip on the metal counter and got up to brave the night air. Maybe the bugs wouldn't eat him alive in the cool. He strode down the avenue, through the crowds, alone as ever. He'd lived most of his life a miser for attention, but assasins learn to blend. Certainly no one was noticing the lanky blond in a forest green tanktop and dark blue jeans. Even in this northern university town, no one commented on his expensive shades, pierced ears, or the matching tattoos on his shoulders. Not even the new one, a version of which he'd passed on the way downtown, carved into the living rock hundreds of years ago.
When the grade began to steepen, Yohji chucked the cigarette. In a trash can, not on the street. There was a word for it that Ken was fond of: whipped. To be sure, a year ago he couldn't have imagined this. Kudou Yohji swearing off cigarettes, cutting down the booze,
walking when he had a choice of dream machines that'd make Aya drool. Seiji allowed him to go out -- women only, not that he had a taste for the kankoba boys -- yet he hadn't had a date in a couple of months. Besides that, most people didn't know about all the little things he did for Seiji. On his hands and knees, on his back, against the wall. In leather and metal and most often in nothing at all. In the early afternoon, in the middle of the night, in the wee hours of the morning when he'd rather be sleeping.
Absently he rubbed the circular kamon on his right shoulder. He'd done a lot of little things for Seiji the night before.
Yohji made it to a bend in the road and stopped to enjoy the view. He felt a bit more awake, shaking out the sweat from his hair. It was still strange to feel his lungs fill with fresh air. A walk like this used to leave him short of breath and uncommonly tired. A side benefit to quitting he hadn't expected to like. Not smoking was the hardest thing he'd ever done. Killing as he did it was over in a moment. He didn't count living with ghosts; that was just being alive, and not something he had to fight every day. At times he desperately missed his smokes. But he threw away his lighters and burned his matchbooks just the same.
It was one thing he did for Seiji that he hadn't asked him to do.
There was no doubt they loved each other. Sure, they fought tooth and nail, and he deliberately annoyed Seiji as much as the swordsman humiliated him, and come to think of it, they said 'I love you' more to their close friends than they did to each other. Yet when it came down to it, that was the secret of their relationship. Yohji turned back to the path, smirking. Perfectly fucked up. The story of his life; why stop now? He wasn't about to explain to anyone how it worked.
From one step to another, Yohji felt the air vibrate and snap into place like a railroad switch track. He knew without looking that the panorama of Sendai behind him had shifted minutely. It ceased to bother him when the Japan he knew rolled under his feet, to be replaced by one which belonged to Seiji, his armor, his legend. It made the tat itch like hell though.
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He found himself walking through the woods, the zelkova and pine surrounding him on all sides. He was going to get himself lost very soon. City man as he was, still he trudged on. Seiji had taught him that too: how to go into places where he did not belong. After all, the named heir of one of the most venerable clans of Japan did not belong in a sex club or a love hotel. Nor in a European dress, nor in domination gear. A grandson disgraced and nearly ostracized by one of the most powerful clan leaders in recent memory did not show his face in a kendo tournament, much less open his own dojo.
Not that any of these things impressed Yohji.
What took his breath away was the vision standing before him.
When he'd started walking, he'd expected another encounter such as they'd had in the past month. Rough, kinky sex, usually with Yohji on the receiving end. Standing there in the small glade, beside a mountain stream burbling into a shallow pool, the curve of Seiji's back and the line of the silk kimono across his shoulders spoke of other possibilities. He was struck by the way the bright blond hair shone in the leafy green shadow.
Seiji turned his head to look at him. As always his hair fell across his right eye, an affectation which Yohji found amusing. Yet his gaze held him in thrall; what Yohji read there he would never repeat to another living soul, a most private and sacred trust. He dared not voice it. The woods and the water might hear.
Yohji stripped off his top, knowing Seiji would want to feel bare skin on his. As he stepped forward, a cloud of fireflies sprang up from the soft grass. He waved off their fae lights since they were in the way.